Friday, June 03, 2011

Faking It

I understood that not a lot of people got the perspective behind this poem. Of course, its art, and open to interpretation, but I would not want you to miss the message. The poem is written from the perspective of someone who is deep in the abyss of prostitution and has lost all hope of coming out of it. Hopefully, this knowledge will add more meaning to the poem as you read it.




I twirl a toe,
let out a sigh
Its practised
and perfected in a classroom
I was forced to enter

I am the clatter you hear
on glass bangles, slowly breaking
I heard the same clatter
in the shatter of my hopes
long ago

I am a lesser human
I pray to a lesser God, perhaps
who is as polymorphous
as the dark street I live in
that turns bright red at night
My God too, changes faces
comfortably
Perhaps she too is accustomed
to the only rule of my trade
'Faking it'

I loved music once
I'm deaf to it now
It helps to be deaf,
and blind,
and numb,
and to fake it.


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37 comments:

Darshan Chande said...

Beautiful!

Tulika Verma said...

:)

Brian Miller said...

wow this is tight with emotion...faking it will only take us so far though as soon enough we will miss ourselves, even if no one else does...

Stranger said...

This is heartbreaking and feels so real to me.
And although I agree with Brian's comment, we may miss ourselves but if we fake it long enough, we may forget how to get back to the part of ourselves that we miss.

Tulika, I like your writing. Thank you for visiting my blog and introducing yourself.

nance marie said...

oh yes...i know about faking it.
it resides on the edge of the vast nothingness.
a true heart breaking.

Tulika Verma said...

Brian, Stranger, I know, one might lose one's identity by faking it too long...that was the unsaid part of the poem...the irony of it...the poem is written from the perspective of someone who is deep into the abyss of prostitution and has lost hope and identity....thanks for appreciating the poem :)

Tulika Verma said...

Nance, thank you :)

ayala said...

Sad and beautiful!

Tulika Verma said...

:) thank you

Celestial Dreamz said...

beautiful with powerful emotions .. :)

Tulika Verma said...

:)

Kartik said...

Till I read your comment that its written from a prostitute's point of view I was interpreting it differently... It was very nice.... From that point of view its too good again...

Tulika Verma said...

:) Thanks Kartik

Sourav said...

Very deep, if a piece of writing can get etched in the readers' mind. The words surely got to be as magical and intense as this one was :)

Tulika Verma said...

Thank you Sourav! :) humbled :)

Jyoti Mishra said...

fully emotional...
yeah u r right sometimes we hide all inside and faux a smile.

Tulika Verma said...

:)

Mary said...

This well-expressed, thought-provoking poem tells a sad story.

Marian said...

hurt and lost... still trying, though. she's still there, i think.

Tulika Verma said...

Mary...thank you :)

Marian, I hope she is :) Thanks a lot..

Amiya chatterjee said...

Please do not juggje with difficult philosophical concepts in your poems.Keep it simple but sophisticated.
Great masters were eminent for their simplicity.

Tulika Verma said...

Thanks for the advice Amiya! Will keep in mind :)

tarunima said...

oh my! what depth you have in your work!:)
its said that poetry comes from the heart and reading your work im sure of that:)
loved it:)
thanks for following,im returning the favor because i love your writing skills(though i have read just one:P)

Tulika Verma said...

Thanks Tarunima...hope you read more :)

Andy said...

Hello.

This is heartbreakingly sad.

You captured the depth of emptiness and numbness very well.

Thank you for sharing.

Eileen T O'Neill ..... said...

Tulika,

A very clever poem, with deep meaning.

Eileen

Sulthana said...

Oh so painful and emotional, captures so much unsaid.

Tulika Verma said...

Andy, Eileen, Sulthana, thanks a lot...
Glad you liked it :)

bttrflyscar said...

I love this, and very much relate to it.

Old Raven said...

I am most appreciative for the preliminary explanation. This indeed a beautiful and sad but very well penned poem.

Andy McDonald said...

Well depicted. People like her feel as though they have to discard emotion in order to do what they believe they must. The pre-poem explanation really helps to understand it.

Tulika Verma said...

Thanks Andy...Need of the explanation tells me I still have way to go in my writing. :) Glad you liked it..

Divya said...

Amazing Tulika.. I just loved this poem.. alot .. wonderful.. great piece...

Tulika Verma said...

Thanks a lot Divya :) Glad you liked it :)

Sherry Blue Sky said...

You have really captured that kind of hopelessness and the level of giving up on things ever being any better. A sad reality for so many. Well done!

Tulika Verma said...

Yes sadly, what we can write about and get away with is a reality for many...thank you :)

Divenita said...

Am so glad it got featured! :):)