Friday, August 29, 2008

Open Diary-21st August 2008


The college has already started looking like a soon-to-be-past thing. Thoughts of the future have affected the present so much! I go down for a coffee and see a swarm of new faces, and it all appears like a big cycle that I’m a very minute part of. Not just the college and the passing out, but life on the whole. I don’t know why and I don’t know whether this is good or bad, but my mindset has suddenly become very spiritual. I try finding a purpose in things I do but I can’t see it. There is a big blunder somewhere in the whole equation of life that we’ve set for ourselves – all of us running this mad race and trying to work for ‘happiness’! sacrificing today’s sleep, rest, talks, smiles and laughters for a better tomorrow- I wonder where this recursion ends. Sometimes all I long for is utter peace, absolute beauty, pure nature and the ultimate solace of being in the company of myself. I wonder whether this phase will pass too; may be tomorrow when I have hordes of responsibilities scuttling up and down my priority queue, I’ll come to terms with the meaninglessness and obscurity of life. But right now, at this very moment, I find myself wiser, older and all the more inadequate and ignorant about the gift of life, breath and spirit that I’ve got.

10 comments:

sahitya said...
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sahitya said...

you have just typed my mind out!! during the last holidays i had scribbled a similar passage about how by mind is so unpredictable and by the time i had finished it i had jotted down exactly the opposite of what i started with! i thought i had gone mad! now i find some comfort to know i am not the only mad one :) you are just amazing!! proud of you :)

Tulika Verma said...

hey maddoo ;-) sorry can't resist from calling you that on public forums...heehee
thank you...i am proud of you too...for a lot of reasons...luv ya :-)

isra said...

cute!! honestly... a smile just sweeped across!

piro nun chiyaa said...

this scroll reminds me of something... but I'm not sure what...! i guess its de furrowy befall of one' spirit dat it always exceeds and runs beyond it...n what explains, me relating to it bit by bit...!!

yea...ye poured my heart...but with better vocab n so gallantly...! :P lol...!

Tulika Verma said...

thanks...i guess we all experience these moods at some point...
about the better vocab...i don't really agree... :-P

piro nun chiyaa said...

ahhh dun be humble :P

Aditya (i hope you remember) said...

Awesome..........
nothing less

Tulika Verma said...

hey! thanks!

Rachti Aggarwal said...

Sometimes i think we all are so similar. These feelings that you have mentioned, i am sure everybody, sometime in his life had experienced.

How hard is to live in the present. All the time, thoughts about past or present keep coming to our mind.

One must learn to live in present because how sad it be,still we always long for it when it become past and passed.

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